Cody sat on the kerb, his head in his hands. His life was over. Maybe it would have been better if he had died. He'd lost his wife and his children. Probably his job. And Luigi … Lou had been so cold! He knew that he loved Luigi as much as he loved his wife. He hadn't realised that until Luigi had left him, until Luigi had been so angry with him. When he'd seen Luigi, that first time in the bar, he'd been entranced by his beauty. Luigi had seemed like a model, an androgynous beauty which perfectly chimed with his inner desires. The first time they'd fucked, and he watched Luigi's sweat-sheened face as he himself came inside him, he'd known that this was it. That he was in love. This wasn't just a random pick-up, some trick who could be forgotten the next day. This was it. And when Luigi had left him, it had felt as if part of his heart had been torn out.
And now Philippa also hated him. And he loved her. He stared at an ant struggling with a burden twice its own size, toiling along in the gutter; at a leaf from the plane tree, about a thousand times the size of the ant. He lifted the leaf out of the way of the tiny creature.
And then he heard the unmistakable sound of a Volkswagen Kombi engine, only a little way away. He ducked down behind the parked car he was sitting next to and waited for the Kombi to pass. Maybe it was the killer, maybe not. But he didn't want to look and see. He found in himself the desire to live again. Or at least to choose his own method of dying.
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