A blunder, thought Lucasta
to herself. So stupid of me I do rattle
on and then I say silly things becoming quite senile really though I remember
Elaine at school being quite sharp with me when I said something silly whatever
happened to her and why should I remember her after all these years good
grief. I’d better talk it over with
Jason tomorrow and see whether I’ve done too much damage it’s like coming out I
suppose and finding that people look at your differently well in the end
perhaps there is nothing you can do about that because in the end you can’t
control other people’s perceptions of you because you just are what you are and
that’s that. Poor lamb he can’t deny
what he is, and I think it’s been easier for him to tell people that’s he’s gay
though the way he was looking at the dear girl Esmé was quite ungay come to
think of it I wonder what’s going on there well at least she’s not a fortune
hunter because she doesn’t know about his money and she looked so sad I wonder
what that’s about so much suffering was there less when we were young?
She fretted into a
dream-filled sleep, in which she wandered empty castles filled with presences
which weren’t quite ghosts but were also un-benign.
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